Raven Clemons

I’m low‑key embarrassed that it’s been three years since I touched this blog. I could blame life and work and honestly, both did their part, but the real reason was simple: I didn’t have the discipline or the motivation. My creativity outside of work just… dimmed.

Then everything flipped. After almost five years with my employer, I learned that my role would require relocation, and since that wasn’t the right move for me, it meant I’d have to leave. That news knocked the wind out of me, but it also woke something up. Something I hadn’t felt in a long time. So I jumped into uncertainty and spent the past six months searching for my next role. Every “no” stung a little more. I spiraled. I needed support. And that support eventually led to my late ADHD diagnosis, but that’s a whole story for another day.

Back to the job search. (Yes, the ADHD detour was intentional.)

I knew I had the skillset to thrive anywhere. That’s not my ego talking; that’s years of grit, a great work ethic and showing up even when I was exhausted. But knowing your worth doesn’t stop your brain from running straight to the worst‑case scenario. No matter what people said about my talent or my track record, I still defaulted to fear. And as someone who was raised to be fiercely independent, the idea of having to lean on others if things didn’t work out terrified me.

I wish I had been more present instead of getting stuck in those thinking traps (shoutout to therapy for giving me the vocabulary), but when you’re in it, it’s hard to see anything clearly.

It’s like trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel while wearing blackout sunglasses. You think they’re protecting you, but once you take them off, the view is actually… pretty great. Weird analogy, but you get it.

The point is: I learned a lot about myself in these six months. I grew in ways I didn’t expect. Honestly, it felt a lot like 2020, and if you read that blog post, you know I was going through it back then, too.

So if you’re in a season of uncertainty, let me be the one to say this: things really do work out, even when you can’t see the path yet.